Monthly Archives: November 2014

So, what have I learned?

Sometimes I forget that this blog is not a platform for me to promote myself. Indeed I can’t because for now I remain anonymous. It makes the transparency easier. But it also makes accountability harder. That why there are people who know who I am that read this log and hold me accountable for what I say.

Last week, i told you that my relationship with my future wife was over. I told you that I smothered her.  I said that i learned things. So what have I learned a week later?

I still don’t have it all together.

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Allow me to re-introduce the Christ – Transcript

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Real Christianity

Below is the transcript to Blair Wingo’s poem ‘ALLOW ME TO RE-INTRODUCE THE CHRIST’ which can be viewed here

Blair Wingo

We’ve got a False Jesus being portrayed. As seen on TV, acting cool….you see he’s changed.
A different Jesus from the Bible so…allow me to bring the real Christ on stage. Not that whack Jesus, the one not based on fact Jesus, too often displayed. The Christ in Glory, not the one on your chain.
Because he’s the real Jesus Peace that only dwells in the saved. So allow me to paint the picture of Christ in the Scripture preaching faith and repentance that your too cool Jesus….never seems to mention. It seems like he’s down with all the things that you do. But come on, there’s only one Jesus who is true. So which one will you let reign over you? Who?
The Millionaire Jesus who just wants to make…

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I don’t have it all together

Today, my relationship with my future wife ended. It was not on good terms. It was amicable. But the reason that it was over is because I screwed up.

I love hard. And because I love hard, I have a tendency to smother. I have a tendency to throw 100% in from jump street. and At the beginning, she was throwing 100% in, too. Then, the time came and she left to pursue a degree.

When she first arrive, I was the only person she talked to. I tried to maintain the full force of an “in person” relationship via correspondence, and it was working. Until she started getting friends. Suddenly, I was less a part of her life. Then, still lesser. Then, still lesser.

I interpreted that as rejection and abandonment. As a sign that something was wrong with our relationship. Read the rest of this entry